Broken Arm Be Damned
My appointment yesterday didn't go the way I hoped but broken arm be damned I'm still launching Print preorders Monday October 13th at 6pm CST...
Yesterday I went into the doctor hoping to hear I’d be starting physical therapy on my arm and could remove my brace… even if I still had to sleep in it, anything would be better than the current status.
Instead I was told my x-rays looked good but I’m still healing and to schedule a follow up in four weeks. I may be able to officially start physical therapy then. As for the brace, it needs to stay put. I can remove it three times a day for exercises my arm is intensely resisting…
Its been 6 and a half weeks since I broke my arm. I was told originally six weeks to heal, maybe 8. Yesterday the doctor told me they didn’t know who had told me that but (it was in fact the same doctor) it was normal for it to take 8-10 weeks. My wrist may continue to swell for another 6 months.
I sat there holding back a waterfall of emotions and was then asked what I was wanting to get back to… but that’s a loaded question and felt like a punch to the gut.
I would love to hold both of my children’s hands when we walk without the brace obstructing one hand…
to wrap both my arms fully around them and squeeze them tight
I would love to scoop them up when they are sad or bursting with happiness to see me
I would love to be able to hold a pencil properly
to write legibly and draw and paint and get back to creating
to be able to braid my daughters hair when she asks or get my own in a ponytail…
I would love to be able to be able to cook meals for my family, to make a big pot of chili as cooler fall air settles in or a batch of cinnamon muffins…
I would love to have been given an idea of a realistic timeline to get back to so many things that make up my life.
So I’ve shed a bucket of tears in the last twenty four hours. Felt nauseated while trying to make my arm attempt things that my brain knows should be simple and I’m trying to take in the reality I wish I’d been given from the beginning.
I am grateful for the gloominess of the day today and all the ways my husband has stepped in to help… for the snuggles my daughter offered me after school pick up and the series of silly faces she and my son gave to make me laugh after she read me Gerald and Piggy books by Mo Willems. She does the best voices for them…
and broken arm be damned, I’m still launching print preorders on Monday 10/13. Keep an eye on your email to preview them all before the launch.
Cheers,
Bec